if u say it..

this is how my day went with no message from you..

listenin' to the R.A.M.O.N.E.S.

thinkin bout you..

he would have liked the way the sun comes through that palm..

ay.. i miss him!

before i go to sleep

had to check my email one last time before i go to sleep.. just in case you had time to write me. but of course noting =[ so its going on.. what, 51 hours since the last time i made contact with you?.. i feel myself falling for you again and its not fair.. but i will wait for you! its what i do

te amo

-caela

so far away

this picture is from our second time together.. nov. 2007 right before i met u @ the airport our moments are few and far in between but the feeling last =&

today was the first day that you are gone..

waiting like a kid on xmas for your email =[

caught up in the thoughts that you have in me..

hooked on "miles away" by madonna,jt,timba

lost in the thought of being in your arms again!

again..

its not just a possiblity anymore

but an acutality that

YOU

are putting together =]

that makes me smile

..and cry @ the same time

"you arent afraid to tell me"

im learning to be stronger and

happier in who i am

my self exceptance is deeper

because your confidence in me

-y do you like me?

01-21-09 21:21:46 "because you're beautiful,

and kind. you aren't complicated i feel @ ease

with you", "but i thought that i was special"

-who said you aren't?

"you don't have a reason why"

he builds me up..

and i tear him down

he makes me smile..

and on his loneliest nights

i make him cry

reading the truth from his hands

and hearing it from

someone elses lips

can not compare

felicity=him

angst=her

however..

no matter

how hard i fall

how deep i sink

how long i wait

how far i go

the reality of

YOU

is waiting for me

when i get back to

the HUMAN level

but i still love

YOU

-caela