got to be there

i have MJ's got to be there in heavy rotation in my head right now.. its just the shit!.. ive been singing it for the past few days.. anywho.. rodee is here.. knocked out on my bed.. came from maui yesterday and we went to outback in ala moana then came home and chilled.. she's sick so i was her "night nurse" lol her phrase not mine! i walked to the store to get here nyquil, halls and chicken noodle soup.. arent i a good bestie?! =] im doing laundry right now.. slept for 10 hours.. cant handle anymore sleep.. dont know what the plan is for today.. we will see.. okay im out

its been awhile

just a few pics from the last month..

Honolulu, Hawaii

Hilo, Hawaii..

Kristyna getting on the bus

she really is here!

@ the airport

taking a break from work

after work @ starbucks across from waikiki beach

everything i need to unwind

chillin

chillin in my room

found this @ goodwill wtf?

and this too

@ my besties sister's graduation - congrats '09

me and my besties niece

my little cousin n his girlfriend @ prom

my life has been pretty chill as of late.. a few people moved away from the islands.. a few more are leaving by the end of the month.. ive been trying to decide when im going to go back to the mainland.. but i dont know if i want to leave all of this.. i love it.. i really do.. i havent gotten off my ass and looked for a second job yet.. i guess because i know that its not necessary so im not determined.. been really inspired lately by broken heartness and confusion.. just been writing at random.. my blackberry has really come in handy for those moments when im without pen and paper [all the time] =] maybe i will share some of what i wrote.. here's a piece i wrote about Rosarito..

think of me with my head on your chest me wearing your jeans sitting on the swing leaving our worries on the breeze me in that long white dress spilling orange juice on your armrest passports and margarita salt, itunes playlist and laying by the pool. when you think of me remember the look in my eyes the one you said looks like im getting ready to cry.. that look is all for you! that look says all of my i love yous. when you think of me think of north shore, kings surf, and public access 276B. when you think of me remember searching for shells with puka and coconuts floating on the surf when you think of me think of the sunrises i saw while you slept or the sunsets we saw while driving through hills. holding hands in the car phones on silent swapping sides of the bed in the middle of the night. when you think of me remember that i need you to be my heater. when you think of me remember the way we kiss. the way i watch you out the corner of my eye while your hand is on my spine. remember Prachel Lee. when you think of me and i really do hope you think of me remember that you said that you love me first. remember that you wanted me but you didnt need me. remember that when im with you you are the only thing i know. when you remember me remember that while i maybe shy i trust all of the future i see in your eyes. remember that i love you. maybe not the same way not the same way you love me. however, if you are remembering me that means that the love i gave you was enough for you to keep loving me

- june 13th, 2009

yeah..i could have gone on and on.. but i left it at that.. i have alot that is still pent up inside that i need to let out somehow.. but im struggling with releasing my feelings cause once they are out you cant put them back in.. anyhoes.. im gonna go and type up somemore stuff.. see if i can find it in me to put it up here..