i date assholes for inspiration..

im always full of inspiration after i learn my lesson from the latest f-up.. maybe i should make a career out of this ish!

walmart random ness with bestie

i love my friends this much

woosaaaaaaaaaaaa

Not Big, Not Fair, and Naive.. Lily Allen gives everything thats in my head! i love this.. everything i couldnt/wouldnt say out loud

my mommy

i remember sittin on the steps outside our front door.. a stuff animal in my lap and my mom at my side.. she was trying to explain to me.. make me understand that my dad still loved me he just didnt know any better than to disappoint me.. i knew better.. but my mom she didnt have the answers she needed for herself so it was hard for her to tell a child.. the only words i believed from the whole conversation were the same words that have been my life line.. the words that gave me hope and faith and determination to live a happy and better life.. "i love you" i know without a doubt that my mom loves me.. everything she does she does for me.. whether im happy, sad, annoyed, or blissful i love my mom to pieces and i know that she loves me.. everything may not go right in my life.. and some times i may disappoint her.. but i know that i will always be the person she lives for.. as she is for me.. i do the good things i do because i want to make her proud of me.. growing up people thought i was afraid of my mom.. it was that i was afraid of her.. i was afraid of disappointing her.. because i remember what its like to be disappointed by someone that you are suppost to love and be loved by unconditionally.. its the worst feelin in the world.. so just so that it can be written proof.. I LOVE YOU MOMMY! you are my everything and even though i may not say it enough i respect you and appreciate EVERYTHING that you have ever done for me