12.10.09

You've been living for 24 years, 0 months, and 11 days. Find your exact age You were born on a Tuesday. What does your day of birth say about you? Your date of conception was probably 8th January 1985. You've seen 6 leap years. Your Zodiac Sign is Libra. Click here to view your Zodiac Profile Your Chinese Zodiac Sign is Ox. Click here to view your Chinese Zodiac Profile Your Ruling Planet is Venus. What does your ruling planet say about you? Your Birthstone is Opal. What does your Birthstone say about you? Your Birth Flower is Calendula. What does your Birth Flower say about you? Your Birth Tree is Hazelnut Tree. Your Birth Number is 7. Find out the meaning of your Birth Number Time till your next Birthday 353 days 9 hours 48 mins. Birthday Countdown Your Lucky Color is Blue or Pink. Your Lucky Day is Friday. Your Lucky Number is Six. WRONG! i was in the womb for 10 months.. not everyone is carried to term..

11.10.09

listening to girl dancing by the bar..

If you said goodbye to me tonight There would still be music left to write What else could I do Im so inspired by you That hasnt happened for the longest time

Once I thought my innocence was gone Now I know that happiness goes on Thats where you found me When you put your arms around me I havent been there for the longest time Im that voice youre hearing in the hall And the greatest miracle of all Is how I need you And how you needed me too That hasnt happened for the longest time

Maybe this wont last very long But you feel so right And I could be wrong Maybe Ive been hoping too hard But Ive gone this far And its more than I hoped for

Who knows how much further well go on Maybe Ill be sorry when youre gone Ill take my chances I forgot how nice romance is I havent been there for the longest time

I had second thoughts at the start I said to myself Hold on to your heart Now I know the woman that you are Youre wonderful so far And its more than I hoped for

I dont care what consequence it brings I have been a fool for lesser things I want you so bad I think you ought to know that I intend to hold you for the longest time

-t.

without you im just me

inspiration is my addiction.. i feed on, breathe it, need it! everytime i find something that is just so real it lifts me up in a way that nothing has in a long time.. i get high off the feeling i get when i find something inspiring.. i love browsing peoples blogs.. n no im not talkin bout the random people or any ol' celeb.. im talkin people that actually have been through shit n are hurting or know what it means to hurt.. thats the only way i can relate.. there is so much intelligence in pain.. so much to learn and appreciate and draw from!
ma ka hana ka 'ike!

"`people change' but i chose to stay the same" -found online

So he would sulk and drink and mope and cross his arms and hope to die. And then a fairy came one night to bring this sorry boy to life. She pulled some strings and spun him about. That boy sprang up and began to shout, “My arms, my legs, my heart, my face they’re alive!” And she would cry, “Liar, liar! What have I done? You’re no lover, and I’m no fighter.”

(The story goes on)

So he would buy her things and kiss her hair to show he was for real. And she would take those gifts and kisses though just stringing him along. She knew about those wooden boys- it’s an empty love to fill the void. “Pinocchio! Oh boy, how your nose has grown!” So he would cry, “Liar, liar! I’ll prove it to you!” But then it grew He had grown tired of her So it was true He left her apartment And he walked all night long ‘til he was stopped by the shore of the ocean. But still he walked on, amongst the whales and the waves, and screamed “Liar, liar!” And his wooden body floated away. He just drifted away.

And now I wonder how i was made… my arms, my legs, my heart, my face, my name is Driftwood.

— Tim Kasher

word!

My Laptop is my new bitch. LOYAL. LISTENS. and NEVER LET’S ME DOWN.
-Travis McCoy

10.10.09

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i want to be happy n im gettin scared cause its not happening.. im not having that giddy excited tingly feeling anymore.. im not anxious and nervous.. im just floating.. i want to feel.. i want to fall in love.. i want the ups and the downs.. i dont want to float! i want to hurt, n laugh, n cry! i dont care if its with a male or a female as long as i know that im alive! and im living! love just is! it doesnt have an orientation! cant i live? cant someone come and sweep me off my feet? or meet me so that i can do the same to them? im ready!!!!! ive been ready i want to live no more floating in the middle somewhere taking it a day at a time. i want to take it moment by moment.. feeling by feeling.. experience by experience.. i want to glory in being the center of someones world.. tonight will come eventually but i want right now!
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i feel hopeless..

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i want to be happy n im gettin scared cause its not happening.. im not having that giddy excited tingly feeling anymore.. im not anxious and nervous.. im just floating.. i want to feel.. i want to fall in love.. i want the ups and the downs.. i dont want to float! i want to hurt, n laugh, n cry! i dont care if its with a male or a female as long as i know that im alive! and im living! love just is! it doesnt have an orientation! cant i live? cant someone come and sweep me off my feet? or meet me so that i can do the same to them? im ready!!!!! ive been ready i want to live no more floating in the middle somewhere taking it a day at a time. i want to take it moment by moment.. feeling by feeling.. experience by experience.. i want to glory in being the center of someones world.. tonight will come eventually but i want right now!
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i feel hopeless..